As all of you have probably realized by now, I was not able to access this blog from China. Seriously, that was probably a good thing, as I was too overwhelmed and too wiped out to put together sentences much more complicated than, "No," "Yes," and "Where are the diapers?"
It's been nice to have time to think before I write. In fact, I have to have time to process before I can write anything.
Last night, in a moment of fleeting "I may live past this god-forsaken jet lag" joy I read (well, skimmed) one of my favorite blogs, Jamie, the Very Worst Missionary Her latest blog entry covers their move from Costa Rica to the States and is entitled "Somehow, we all lived..." I just finished rereading what I wrote last night in her comments box. This is the real, off the cuff, no editing, state of my head and heart right now:
"We got home from CHINA Saturday with our new two year old. We trekked across China and the US with a grieving (did I say, "fit throwing?" ) two year old with a leaky urine bag and a catheter that does not "seal" over her bladder. We were delayed and cancelled, we rode in taxis, planes, buses, a rickshaw, even a train. We (painfully!) hadn't seen her brothers, ages nearly 5 and 6, in two and half weeks....exhausted? SHE DOES NOT SLEEP. I can't even put long enough sentences together to explain to anybody how just exactly emotionally (tapped out) I am. And, I won't be able to for a while. Yes, I chose this. Yes, I am glad that I did. But yes, sometimes, the best you can say is, "we lived." :) I'm freaking proud of you for being able to make any sort of blog entry at all."
Every blog entry is "prepared" in some manner. It is edited and rewritten and etc. The above little paragraph was minimally "prepared." So, if by some miracle, I manage to make our trip to China sound like a family vacation, it wasn't. ( It was also one of the most amazing things that I've ever done in my life, I hope that that comes across HUGELY, most of all.) And, on the flip-side, if I begin to ramble in weird directions, you'll understand that too. :)
Here goes -you know, it's gonna take a few blog entries, right? :)